I lurk here and there to see how you all are doing. Happy to see familiar names still improving, and still continuing to give advice.
This board is something else, a rare bastion of genuine support, help and human compassion.
I still don't see myself being of help on the forums here as I almost know too much from my journey. I almost regret working to save my marriage and feel like an idiot for wasting so much time, holding out hope and not being a man of action and ending it right after I caught the EA. For this reason, my help would be pro divorce biased when there is an affair and I don't want to promote divorce.
I'm doing pretty well considering the environment of the world and my state. My kids more importantly are thriving. I never imagined them doing this well. Smart, adorable, get along well. Talk well with other kids and with known adults. All around fun to be around, D5 bringing kindness and S3 bringing humor to the world.
I myself am in a rut. I want to leave the state, and get my kids somewhere less violent and where it better suits my culture however the only way to do that, would be to convince the ex to move Which isnt happening, she keeps her head in the sand as to whats happening around our area.
Alas as my goals seem impossible to achieve, I kind of just do enough to get by, while waiting for an opportunity.
Thats all for now. My main point before venting was to say Hi and thank you vets for continuing to help people going through heartbreak.
Hey Core, really glad to see you alive and kicking! You were one of my first inspirations here. Dont remember why but THANK YOU for your help!
Hey Mumin! Yours threads is one I've lurked through off on and. What a journey, isn't it! I'm glad I could be of help to you. We had a lot in common in our sitches and I think that made things easier, to see the other alive and making it through. There's days where you really don't feel like you'll make it, bit we do and did so far.
Wishing you well, also and great to hear from you again!
I've been so bad about books lately. I should try to get back in. I stocked up on alot. The urge to self improve really died off for awhile here. Really once I got a grasp of whats going on in the world and from who, and an understanding of male and female nature I had a few months of actually and not subtly giving a ....! I'm rebounding somewhat. I think we also come down from the high of mass self improvement from early in our sitches. After awhile of going at a speed of 100, I asked "why", and I stopped. Why improve? Lifes a bit more enjoyable but I don't want old wife, I don't want new wife, I want to live freely and die happy.
Dejavu, thank you and I missed the digital hugs given here on the board. What you said resonates with me and is something I try to do. Actually was just taking to others yesterday about helping more than hurting. Maybe I need to find a new way to help. For awhile I cleaned up trash and tried to beautify my neighborhood. It felt good but even keeping up on cigarette butts is quite the battle!
This masculine vs. feminine energy is BS. It’s not worth making small changes and impact, it’s not worth doing something that is “feminine” which you feel doesn’t make change. Only big scale “masculine” stuff does?
On top of that, it’s not a good thing to teach kids young about different cultures, skin colors, etc? And they aren’t teaching sex Ed. They teach children to respect their bodies and protect them at a young age. I don’t understand what is “normal” school vs “abnormal school”?
This is of course all way way way above our pay grade. I have a feeling because you seem to think the world is a conspiracy right now, you wouldn’t trust a mental health professional. I hope your find some peace and hope somewhere in your life
I don’t think you are alone in feeling that way. I would say all of us are suffering from information overload these days. Self care and acts of kindness are the things I do to stay sane these days. Sending you lots of (((hugs))) my friend.
