It’s 6am and I woke up and can’t go back to sleep. I just made the decision that screw what he wants about keeping lawyers out of it. He can’t have his cake and eat it too. He wants out for his own health, I’m going to fight for mine. He wants to leave me to fend for myself, I’m going to start now. I’m sorry he has low self esteem. My childhood was no picnic either. I’m the queen of no self esteem but I’m not going around hurting the person I love the most because of it. I’m getting every penny I’m entitled to even if that means hurting him financially. He wants his freedom, I can’t keep him from that but I can keep what’s mine. He has choices, I don’t.