You are so right that you can't control him, nor can you fix him because you didn't break him. The only one that can right his world is the man up above.

Easter is going to be difficult, but you will get through it. If you need to cry, do it. There is no shame in shedding tears. In fact, they are healing in their own way. Once he is in his apartment, the stress and tension will ease up in your home a bit. He may not push too hard to settle things up and just let things ride for a bit. The more you push, the harder he will pull away. You are doing the right thing in not pushing. Many people don't realize that the more you question them, the more they will distance themselves and lie.

Holidays and special events are difficult. When I went through this years ago, my xh would surface and make life difficult on those particular days/times. It was like he didn't want me to be happy and wanted to remind me he was out there.

Continue as you have been. You are doing well for someone who still has an alien living in the home. Make a list of things that you would like to do and go for it.

Hang in there. This is not a sprint, but a marathon. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way today.