"I’m not quite sure what you mean by the rules should be applied to both."

This was in response to something Valeska said about me taking a trip at the same time as W. I need to let her do what she's going to do.

"The LBS usually is working on self improvements. Having received a jolting life-altering wake-up call. And will therefore heal and grow before their spouse"

True. And this is part of where my impatience has come from. I recognised this need for change quite early, I took the blame all on myself, made lots of changes and then got impatient. But I forgot the main thing. Detachment. The more I detach, the more I see it is the key. I'm not there yet. And I see I have more of a journey to go on. And I need time for that.