None of this is easy, and I don’t think most of us know how to navigate these situations after BD. I know for me, I tried to control what I thought I could because my life felt and feels totally out of control. It’s a tough spot to be in.

I think it’s always helpful to reflect on our contributions to the marriage breakdown, even if we don’t feel we are 100% to blame. As you said, you took some responsibility, but it’s not your fault your spouse decided to have an EA. I tell myself the same thing, while I contributed to the breakdown, that part isn’t on me, you know?

I appreciate your posts, and I think you are learning and navigating this situation the best you can day to day. All we can really do is become the best versions of ourselves right?