You'll get there Josh, I'm 2 years down the line from BD (almost to the day). I followed the advice to the letter on here DnJ & Kind18 consistently steered me in the right direction. Sometimes bluntly but always with care. I'm now divorced after 22 years of marriage & 26 years together. I'm happy, have a fantastic social life & genuinely feel that the divorce was a good thing. My ex fluctuates in and out of his crisis & I'm still working on not dashing in to save his relationship with our two children (21&18). There's still difficult days where I mourn my life as it was but the one guarantee is that things change & time passes. Hope you have a lovely christmas 🎄