Stay strong grok, i feel like im on the same boat as you. Its true, while a death is hard to process emotionally, losing a spouse youve spent your whole life together and built a partnership with, it is one of the most painful and devastating losses one can experience. Its a lingering pain, you that you know you will have to live with whether it be ever present or a nagging thought or emotion in the back of your sunconscious. I too like you am nearing the end of half a lifetime with someone. Even thinking about the final stroke of the pen can bring a sudden feeling of a loss of ones own self being. Just know that I am rooting for you and that you come out of the other side of this with your head held high and a sense of relief of an end to that chapter.
