Good evening, Catman. This is a great deal of change happening at one time. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and steadily moving ahead. You have the opportunity to build a wonderful life for yourself. I encourage you to think hard about what the values most important to you and use them as a filter going forward to decide how consistently you're living life consistent with your values. Time to set new goals. Work on being the "prize" for anyone you may choose to have a relationship with in the future. Grieve the loss of this relationship. Learn from whatever your contributions may have been to what got you to this point as well as how to be careful for the type of person who may approach you first to start a future relationship. We can often fall for the same kind of person or they seek us out because they find the same things attractive that your STBXW did. Keep posting. Safe travels and I look forward to hearing how you're settling in. Nice job upgrading to 1st class too. Enjoy!