So yesterday I handed in home keys and it felt so surreal, leaving I hope I put so much mental and physical energy into. By the same token a sense of relief came through, finally getting out of something I was feeling trapped in for a long period brought me some comfort. I realized what the home was doing to me and that it wasn't detrimental to my health being there and having to constantly pester the stbxw to do her part and meet her responsibilities. Also based on her previous choice of words it felt like it was almost a bird cage of sorts, she had been perfectly fine me being in the home and her continuing her immoral lifestyle while keeping me caged up and there to play with when things didn't go the way she wanted. Being a bird let out of a cage is the sense I get now. My next door neighbour's home is where I'm staying and having some company at night is a welcome change rather than the empty soulless, lifeless shell my home had become. Today with the planning of a work colleague who is set to retire this year I will be getting together with a bunch of people from work whom I've spoken to on a regular basis so it will be nice to see everyone before I leave tomorrow.
I decided to upgrade my ticket to first class as a way to treat myself and begin my new journey with some comfort and to go head first into new life with a better attitude and positive experience.
It is nice to finally feel and see some hope on the horizon. I will not have to see her before I go so there's a silver lining in this. I will be dropping off the car tomorrow at her parents home and I sense some emotions will be there as they were always kind to me and I value people in my life who treat me well and they always welcomed me into their home and family and treated me as if I was a part of theirs.

The separation is not yet complete as I had to make an ammendment to ensure I'm removed from liability of her car and then lawyer will witness me signing the agreement and then it's left in her hands. I worry that she may not sign as she has yet to get a lawyer and might delay to keep some sort of control over me moving forward, but I will have to adjust accordingly