This is why honest sustained therapy is so important.
Stop looking for reasons to stay stuck and start looking for reasons to love yourself. You are far far more than just a husband or father. Start taking care of the rest of yourself too.
You know the reasons Jesus allowed divorce Rock. You obviously know your ex has hit everyone of them. She cheated and is flaunting it, which is about as ungodly as it gets. Is she a believer Rock, or a believer when it’s convenient?
Your faith is obviously incredibly important to you, and it sounds like it’s apart of your identity. Your ability to take all these 2x4s and don’t even show anger towards strangers on the internet is honestly fairly awe inspiring.
So Rock, as a child of Jesus, as a child from god, how do you think your Heavenly Father feels watching his son waste away because of someone who disrespected their promise to you in front of him?
Honestly I would highly advise you roll out on her asap. But, I’m not ignorant to your goal. Please realize I’m not trying to talk you into a divorce. I’m talking to you into some self respect, because without self respect everything is lost.
Be happy Rock, be content Rock, be interesting Rock, and for the love of god…be human Rock.
