Halloween was so fun. D11 was a box of her favorite candy (I made it). S1 was a construction worker. Nailed both of them. S1 trick or treated for about 20 houses before I took him to my mom's. D11 and I went hard for 2 hours. She collected 7 lbs of candy and was very excited about it. Most of it will end up donated or baked into Halloween cookies for people at work, but it was fun.
That's so funny that you hope for a white Christmas. Is that because of all of the snowy movies and songs? I just assumed people in Australia were used to summery Christmas. I've always thought that would be the hardest thing for me to get used to if I moved there.
As far as W, I'm honestly not very hopeful she will have a change of heart and want to come back. By that I mean I'm not living in hope, although I still think anything is possible. She shares her mom's tendancy to never admit fault and pretend everything is great. My xW *eventually* came clean about her affair, apologized and asked to try again. But I had already moved on. Throughout that DB process, I always thought she had it in her to admit her fault. I don't know if current W has it in her. It's a lack of honesty, but more than that, it's a lack of self confidence. xW, through her faults, does have a lot of confidence. W doesn't. And I think in this case, even if she were to get over her affair and want to rejoin our family, I think she wouldn't have the guts to say it for fear of rejection.
But then again, what do I know haha. I'm mind-reading with that statement. I think I'm doing the right thing, focusing on me, the kids and friends. It's crazy how different my second DB process is from the first. Could not stop thinking about xW for months. Mind went crazy every day wondering if there was OM. This time I know there probably is, but for the most part I legitimately don't care and don't worry about it. Hopefully that continues.
