I am so sorry to read your story teteme and hear you are going through this. What an absolute journey so far. While I am a little younger than you I too am in the same boat of dealing with a H that all of a sudden decided he wanted to walk away, leaving us feeling broken. It’s amazing how we can somehow dig so incredibly deep through all the pain and heartache and still get up every day and uphold our responsibilities for the kids. You are doing an incredible job and while you can’t see it now, you should really hold your head so incredibly high and don’t let anyone take your power. I too was of the thought that the marriage can be saved, I mean MWD says so in her first few chapters. We too were happy too. Then a flip switches in our H head and they basically turn into 17 year olds. Mine has gone the opposite to going out though.
I think you are going to find so much love and support on this forum. Keep talking on here and posting. So many have such amazing advice. I am very new to this whole Db scene but the amount I have grown as a person over the last few months is incredible and a lot of it comes from advice and support on here. Post as much as you can and I’m sure the DB community will give you amazing advice, I am sorry I don’t have the best of advice right now as I too am trying to just keep swimming. But remember, we are incredible beings, and we rise through all the adversity and come out the other side even better versions. Keep working on yourself and don’t be scared to lean on family or friends for as much support as you need.