He just said his emotions and is head is all a mess and he doesn’t know what he wants, and I guess someone who has bottled stuff up for so many years and never learnt to talk is struggling with it
He IS confused, that part is true. Just remember that you need your own boundaries too.
Remember to believe nothing he says and half of what he does.
Start living for you, you are not waiting for him - that is not going to work.
