FwdMvmnt,

Good job standing up for yourself and firmly saying no to an open marriage.

IHS is indeed incredibly difficult, especially when your W is so openly cheating and disrespecting you. At least mine attempted (poorly) to hide it?

Drop the rope for sure. Easier said than done. You made a mistake now try to be better going forward.

Keep working at it and your incredible list of Spiritual, Emotional, and Physical goals...you'll get there.