After reading a bit I think I’m still too sad for this forum. I feel good most of the time but I don’t have a life. I’m in hermit mode learning how to make myself happy. This has given me the gift of not putting up with bad treatment. I’ve straight up walked away from a few potential friends. If their presence isn't better than being alone then I’m out. This feels amazing btw.

I clung to my kids but I’m over that too. If they prefer money and gifts then so be it (they don’t). I no longer live in fear of being alone.

I live a simple life. I love my job. I read, watch tv, play on my phone, I have a bunch of plants, I got my cat back, I go to the gym or exercise at home. My house is decorated like a teenagers (lol). I’m debt free. I get to do whatever I want which is wonderful after 30 years of catering to another person.

My ex diagnosed me with bipolar disorder and convinced a doctor of it. I am happy to report I’m off those meds and I’m actually a peaceful person. All the horrible things he said about me were actually about him.

I want to date one day but for now I know I have nothing to offer. When I do date I want to bring the very best version of me.

I can’t wait until I actually am well enough to be here. smile