I appreciate the feedback Kind. I understand and will continue to DB hard core and if it comes if/when I need to get out it Will be direct or will just act not talk.
I still question my 180s sometimes. During the marriage she complained about being controlling and hard headed. I was definitely a nice guy and codependent. The actions of dropping the rope, NC and GAL to not be around seem like they could come off the wrong way. After BD it was definitely trying to talk my way back and looking weak. I think this is why I struggle. I do realize that it is counterintuitive and will continue the process. I’m glad I found these boards to bounce thoughts off of everybody before acting. I’ve always been reactive.
Tonight will be tough, it’s first night here where all kids will be with her. I will praying and utilizing my program, using my resources and reading Hold On To Your Nuts. I have The Four Agreements, Art Of Seduction, Rules of the Game, and Fathered by God all on deck. I think I’ve read more books the last two months than in the last 30 years.
