Terrible weekend, all my fault. Lots of anger has been building up and unfortunately, I let some of it out Saturday.
You can't keep stuffing it down, but when and how you release it is in your control. It is important that you find a safe place to let out all your emotions. With your W is not safe RIGHT NOW. One of her needs is you being the calm one.
Go to the gym and pump out all your anger. Sit in your car in a parking lot and let out all your tears. Yell and scream in your car if needed. Crank the radio as you drive and feel all the emotions of the songs that come on.
When you are with W, calm and content. Do not think, just be present in the moment. Small talk is OK. No Big Talk. Treat this as a new relationship. You are dealing with a damaged human. We are all damaged humans. She is the same person she always was, you just see her different now. Do not let this cloud how you treat her.
