Date got cancelled for tomorrow night 😢 . I won’t see him for another 2 weeks because he leaves for vacation ( in the state, DTS as us Jerseyans like to say).
He continues to be communicative. Called me to apologize he couldn’t make it. Stays in touch and is very sweet.
It’s a tough one . As a person. No red flags so far. Completely green. And I’m of overlooking anything in that area. The biggest barrier is getting out of a marriage. If you took that away, he’s seriously great. My biggest problem is trying to tell myself to stop telling myself this is going to fail eventually. I keep writing off my fate. I find myself going to sabotage it before I go get hurt. I stop myself though. I’d be full of regret if I tried to ruin it before I get hurt.
We had a nice weekend at my dad and his wife’s. She had fun with her friend and I got more sun than I have in years. I’m super freakin tan. I got an extra day off today because I agreed to work Sunday . I spent 3 hours on my yard. Grocery shopped, meal prepped, cleaned, and for my birthday kicked At the gym. All in all a solid day.
d has been acting completely normal. She’s enjoying her time At her dads. She’s fine being there. All I can do is stay hyper alert and keep communication open. She’s being a teen cheer coach for the town this year. She starts next Monday. I remember when she was was so little started here and is she’s teaching those kids. It’s crazy. I’m happy she will be busy in subway 2-3 nights a week and then back to games during football season. It goes towards her required volunteer hours. Recently, the boys and girls club she pretty much grew up at was in the news. Like the The big news stations. 100 kids got dropped off there at night. Had an illegal party and destroyed everything . She says to me “ what kind of parents do theS kids have that they would be raised to think this OK?!?” I mean, we must be doing something right .mostly me. Hahahaha!
