Another (predictable) update; H came by the apartment to take care son yesterday and said he wants to come back. He said he misses me and wants to be a family again. My initial thought was 's**t! I was already happy with how things are going, and now he has to f*** it up again.' I had to rush to go to my friend's when he said that and I really didn't know what to say to him. I didn't really respond to him aside from "we will talk about this when I get back."
I am not sure what his actual reasoning is, but I guess the fact that he is depressed plays a part. I have been staying at a friend's during the weekends, so I didn't have to deal with him. This afternoon, however, I have to come back home, so I will need to face him then. I'm not sure exactly what I am going to say to him when I return. I don't want to give merit to his request nor am I ready to just get over this and pretend nothing ever happened. I also know his depression has the tendency of making him suicidal, so I would prefer that whatever I say don't make him jump off the balcony (and we live on 17th floor, so this is a real risk).
Wow, that's a big update. I think you did the right thing saying "we will talk about this when I get back." This forum has a lot of examples of false recons and WAS/WSs jumping back and forth. I'm sure a lot of folks will remind you to make him earn it, if you even choose to entertain the idea.
