I will admit to being insanely jealous of ow, though not so much her and H (though that hurts), but b/c H is now finally acting like the H and father I wanted him to be.
First off, you only know part of what he is doing, and only part of the time. EVen if he really is acting like the H and father you wanted, it won't last. You know it won't. If it is not his genuine self he won't be able to keep it up. And he won't want to keep it up, because as you said, all that zip in the beginning of the R will fade. Yes ma'am, it will definitely fade away eventually.
Please don't torture yourself nicola. You have a life, a good one.
