I am glad to hear that you had a great weekend. I am not much of a drinker but discovered a scary thing a couple of weekends ago, booze doesn't make your problems go away but can make them seem more distant. I now understand why people use alcohol or any other substance to drown out their sorrows.
I also understand your thoughts about your strength coming and going. As for me I do fairly well most of time only to hit a wall. I am hoping as I GAL and do more 180’s that I will not hit that emotional wall. I just feel like I am getting walked all over by the one person that is not supposed too. But that leads me to your next thought about the change that our spouses are making being for us. I agree, “our lives can still be wonderful even without the person we had once wanted in it more then anything else”, but the hard pill for me to swallow is that Christ made it clear what he thinks about divorce. “Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate”. Now my wife is trying to use her faith to justify her actions.
Keep putting your hope and expectations in the Lord; you will not be disappointed in the end. I am praying for you and your family. You are strong, caring, giving, joy filled man and your W will be missing out on a lot if she doesn’t shake her demons. Keep your head held high knowing that you are a child of God and that his grace is sufficient for you.
