Okay. So H is not at the job site again today and hasn't been to the office....
So, I freaked out and checked his credit card. The last charge was Saturday for a haircut. Then nothing...
I didn't want to stop by the job site and ask them about him - don't want them to know anything. I don't know what H told them... Didn't want to mess anything up.
If he was going out of town, even if it was with HER, don't you think he would have at least had the courtesy to TELL me???? Even if he just said he was going out of town and I did ask if it was with her, he could have lied - how would I ever know???? So there's no credit card charges on either our business or his personal card since Saturday....
So then I freaked out more and drove around her house, looking for his car. I didn't see her car or his car.
So, now I'm sure he's gone somewhere, and probably with her... (haircut before he leaves???).
I am literally shaking right now and just numb. I know he needs to do what he needs to do right now, but to think of them having a trip together.... I know we've had trips together, too, but I don't think he's told her that he was with me. I know I shouldn't be upset...
I guess it's just hard because I haven't seen him since I've been home, and although I know I wasn't supposed to have any expectations, I certainly didn't expect for him to be GONE!!! Help me, guys. I seriously am in such a bad place mentally right now... I literally don't know what to do. Is this a panic attack? God, how am I going to get through this?
And I have so much work to do....... I am in a really, really bad place right now, guys... I'm scared......
