I am not close. I get frustrated and when I am down, I think to myself, if I have to live this way, I should have just stayed in my first marriage. But my H and I really do get along and have fun sometimes. I do love him very much. I told him that I am feeling very lonely! I know he wants things to be better too, says he is just lazy. I sometimes think that maybe something will shake him. Not sure what it is. I am not close to giving up but there are days that I feel like it because I have already been down this road and hate that I am going down it again. I know the euphoria is gone, I am truly ok with that, but we are not 85 years old and we are still breathing!! I can live with the plateaus and the downs as long as there are some highs once in awhile!!
That is why I feel like I should start thinking about myself. Ways to make me happy/healthy in all of this. I know that could lead to giving up but what do I do? I will keep trying any ideas... that is all I can do.
