Trying to piece at last

[hurtingbad]

Yeah I did realise that this was not gonna be easy. The first day I had the same old expectations and none happened and i sat myself down and said look if he dont feel it yet he is not gonna be able to do this this and this just be patient.

So I know you are all right and am gonna be patient (the hardest part for me lol) and just build up myself to the person I wanna be> I am still looking after myself going to the gym tanning etc planning a few nights out twith the girls and am also working on my relationship with the kids we are doing things together things that we have never done in the past we were never a real family time family but me and the girls are now we go all over and do things together and have invited H to take part in some of these outings so as to make sure he doesnt feel excluded.

Hugs HB