Starting to really piece it back together

[Heartbroken]

Hello LO,

Well I had my C session last night - not sure if I will go alone again - she is going to call in two weeks to see how I am doing but she sees how I have progressed and she knows how much I am out here and reading the right books. She brought up another one she is reading called:
How to Improve Your Marriage Without Talking About It: Finding Love Beyond Words by Patricia Dr Love and Steven Phd Stosny (Hardcover - Jan 16, 2007)

She says sometimes we talk to much - I know I do. I find that if I let more silence happen H will continue talking and even elaborate.

So all in all a good C session. She said H needs to talk about OW to get it all out. H admitted yesterday he misses OW - the friendship but that he does not feel the love for her anymore. I finally have accepted him being gone as long as he wants - my brain kept saying this but it took my heart this long to catch up. So I am off to shop with GF tonight, H gets the kids for dinner and I will pick them up later. D12 just asked Sunday night when Daddy was coming home - I said I am not sure sweetie. They see how much time we are together and how affectionate we are so the kids make assumptions. H just needs time to get through all these feelings grief, sadness, guilt...

We both have Fri/Mon off so it should be a great weekend - wish we were going on a trip though....did not say this to him of course!!!

We will never go back to the old R - I cannot let it. In fact I am thinking of getting a "maid's outfit" from Fredericks and showing up to "clean" his apt (trench coat and all - HA)!!!