Guess I spoke up to soon because on Monday my L sent us both emails asking us to review the final D decree and then she cc both me and L saying she agreed to the final D decree. And in her email she sent the L the information he was asking for, looks like she still want the D. I have not talked with W on the phone in over 10days, we do talk by emails everyday and there is no talk about our M. there are some days I feel alot of hate towards her because of what she is doing. But then there are some days I tell myself to just let her go see if it's greener on the other side of the fence and the reason I feel this is because once she sees it's not all that great on the other side of the fence, she may want to come back and if there is ever a chance we get back together she will not have that in the back of her mind. What's the old saying on DB "if you love someone let them go because you cant make them stay" the hate I have is because after busting my butt for 11 long years to provide her with a very nice house and nice car and not having to worry about money she is throwing it all away. I know you cant buy love and I known I've done some things wrong in our 23yr M. So I have made some goals to help me to be a better man and get my life back the way I want it to be and this will show her some changes that she will like very much. In the early stages of this D talk my W has told me many times that she isnt ruling out we will someday be back together. I truly feel I need to let her go on this journey to get it out of her system because her thoughts of it being greener on the other side of the fence has been on her mind for 7 yrs. Yes I maybe taking a big chance of letting her go on this journey but I wouldnt want her to stay and it come up later down the road. I love my W very much and yes it will hurt if she does get involved with someone else but deep down in my heart I feel that she will be back one day and we can make this a better R. sorry for being so long
