Thanks, imLin, and WELCOME HOME! Please post when you feel up to it and let us know how your trip went, okay? I've been thinking about you and hoping that you were having a wonderful time.
Still feel like the world is coming in around me... Just want this day to end...
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looking back now I know it was impulsive on my part because it DID NOT change how I felt
Can you explain this a little bit more, imLin? Thanks.
Now wondering if he took his suitcase and was no where to be found today because he is with "her" on a trip somewhere. God help me to STOP thinking/caring about what he is doing. I guess I just wish so much that *I* had someone to come home to at night and to be with and laugh with...
I'm not sure exactly when their R started, but I think it became a physical R around the end of October, just by the way I noticed he was acting differently. So, if that's the case, 6 months would be this month (April) sometime. I know Michele says that most A's end within 6 months, so now I'm getting so scared about that, too. They seem to be still "going strong," although I have no idea for sure. What if it doesn't die its own death????
I feel like I've failed so miserably... I didn't DB as well as I could have before our first trip, I panicked when he did come home, and I'm so scared that he isn't going to give us another chance, and I just see the whole world crumbing around me.... I would give anything for someone just to hug me, tell me it's all going to be okay, that if I just do what I need to do right now as far as distancing/detaching that he WILL come along. I know there is no guarantees and that the ultimate goal all of this is to fix ME... I just miss him so much and don't want to be a failure at M...
