Sorry that you are having a rough day, I know how you are feeling. Take some comfort in knowing that you are not the only one who feels this pain. I believe in something much greater then this world and our sitch's and though it is hard I believe that it is an honor to suffer a fraction of what Christ suffered for me.
The fact that you are at this site tells me that you a compassionent, tender hearted, amazing W. We don't deserve the pain that we all are going through, no one does. Even though your H cannot see it through his deception and lies, try to remember that you are a great person, a great wife, a great....