Tabd, Thanks for your response. Glad to know that I am venting in the right place!
Well I am my IM visable right now b/c I had to IM my cousin a question... it has an away message though "Early awaiting Cindy's Daddy's reponse. Hugs to Tammy and John and Big KISSES to Miss CINDY!" But up side he has not "hidden" his screename. So that is good.... we will see.
I keep crossing my fingers that he will text me Easter wishes so I won't spend all day debating about what is the "right" thing to do.
It is just a touch tug of war. Am I true to myself and who I am? Or do I respect his wishes for no conact? I guess in a way he just said HE need to keep to himself and that there was an emotional cost to him when he is AROUND me. So technically he never said I could not contact him.
I guess I would just feel bad if I didn't take time out of my day to let him know I was thinking about him. It is one of those things that my heart says is the "right" thing, but on the flip side I want to be respectful of what he told me.... But then again he hasn't been very respectful of me in the past two years... so.....
Oh the circular logic and battles that go on inside my head!
