Trying to piece at last

[hurtingbad]

hey all moving over here from newcomers as I am now piecing or trying lol

My H deceided that we can give the R one more chance and this is the last chance so we have to make it work lol.


Soooo...

We are gonna take it real slow. He is gonna stay living with his mam and continue to keep visiting over here like he used to. Which to me seems real easy he has been doing it for ages now. I suggested that we work on building ourselves up as a family first then work on the M. So where I would normally go and do things with the kids ie walking and swimming on my own he is gonna come with us and see how much fun it can be.

I am still a bit (I dont know what the word is to describe it) but he is still saying he dont love me but am using the number one rule on that one. And I understand that we have tried before and failed but as I explained in our big talk we never really tried when we tried he moved back in things stayed the same nobody changed and nothing changed just pushing us furthere apart. This time it can work because I have changed beyond belief and have promised myself that I will never turn back into that nasty horrid person I was. I know that the things i used to do to him was what made him leave and I totally understand now why he did. I said to him that him walking out was the best and the worst thing to ever happen to me the worst because I lost him and the best because it felt like someone had whacked me across the face with a cold wet fish (or noodles lol) and said to me look what you have done. Look what you have done to the best thing that happened in your life and look what you have done to your kids. He said he understood all this and is willing to give the new me a try but what if it doesnt work. I said to him if it doesnt work it doesnt work I believe I am A much stronger person now and I dont need him like I used to I just want him lol. I explained if it didnt work out then we could go back to how we have been good friends for the kids sake. he was like ok then lets try. YAY So we have decided to give it a go until the end of the hols which is 3 months away and see how we feel then and if we feel it is getting somewhere we will carry on but if he till feels nothing has changed then we will part but amicably. I honestly truely feel that this can work though because the old me is totally gone and it was everything that i did as the old me that made him leave and if them obstacles are not there now theres nothing to say it wont work.

So there ya go what you all think
ps feel free to give me the full whack if you think this is wrong
I need to know what you all think of the sitch and whether it can work and what i gotta do while trying to make it work

Hugs HB