need a little encouragement

[kissak]

I am having a hard time on this roller coaster!! I feel like I am giving everything I have to work on my marriage. I don't seem to get it back. Love, I mean. I only get attention if I give it. I noticed that since he has been back, 2 months now, He doesn't hardly ever call me Honey anymore. It really bothers me. I even told him playfully that I liked it when he calls me that. Some days I feel like he is just there. I feel like what he might have felt like before he left. Given all the attention and not getting it in return. Is this normal for him to act this way? He likes the attention and doesn't push me away at all, but, I don't know. Is this how it goes until he is able to love me again. That, I still haven't heard either. It is so depressing. He still speaks to Woman he dated while we were separated. I don't think she is an issue to worry about, she was a good friend of his before we separated, and explained to me that they would always be good friends. She is even dating someone new. But I still get very jealous if she asks him to do something for her. Why can't she ask her new man? I try not to let the jealousy show, but my whole attitude changes if he mentions anything about her. He has been honest about everything so far, but this is something at first I thought I could get past, but, I am finding it harder and harder not to think about. I am jealous of their friendship. He has a relationship with her that he and I don't have. She is not my friend! What do I do? I feel like if I told him that I didn't want them being friends, he would leave me. It is just something that has been bothering me lately. Even though he is on his way to moving back in(even though he has stayed here everynight since Feb. 1) I still have thoughts in the back of my head that he will leave me again. Trust is hard to have after all of this, but I am trying real hard because I love my Husband. I give him everything. I know it just takes time, but I am tired. Any thoughts?