I am still away from home and have had only one phone conversation with H since Saturday morning. I know he understands that I am avoiding contact with him. He did not try to contact me yesterday, but did IM the friend with whom I am staying, asking what I was doing.
In this place away from my sitch I have had the chance to look at my M from a new perspective, and have reached a new understanding of the ways H has manipulated me and the reasons I allowed him to do so. His actions have been so much more deliberate and destructive than I ever thought, and I feel strong with this knowledge. I no longer feel an obligation to bow to his pressure. Granted, it has been easy to feel this way in the absence of contact with him.
Though I am experiencing some ups and downs, I feel free and at peace, and have been thinking about things I want to do with my life. The possibilities are exciting. Just have to figure out how to fit them in!
