Starting to really piece it back together

[Heartbroken]

Thanks Heywyre, 2940831 and HeartScared!!!

This is why I post here! You guys and this whole team at this site are soooo inspirational! I can say whatever here and not have it turned around on me!!

After I logged off last nite I texted H and said I missed him and wanted sex NOW - not really thinking he would respond it was 5 am and most of us are sleeping at this point... I kept thinking what a nice surprise if he just showed up at our home and crawled into bed and guess what HE DID !!! We ML and it made me so happy - I kept thanking him for the surprise visit and then we fell asleep until he went back to the apt at 8:30 ish - kids slept downstairs (had a sleepover) so I don't think they even knew he had been here...

We got together later today shopped and talked about future house projects (we are MAJOR DO it your selfers) and I did not press for a timeline. Had dinner as a family and now just dropped him off at the apt. H said he had a good weekend. H says he misses her friendship but he still has no real desire to contact her. He misses the loss of the friendship - I said I know I lost her as a friend and him as my best friend. H seemed quiet after this comment - like 'wow' the wife hurts too.

All in all a very good weekend - some sad points but more happy ones than sad! Went riding with the neighbor guy on his harley this afternoon - that was fun!!!

Thanks for all your support! Baby steps and I will keep pluggin' away!!