I'm doing well, thanks for checking in with me. I was just reading Hannahsmom's thread- you gave her some wonderful advice. All things that I needed to hear again. You truly are an inspiration!
I am heading to Florida on Thursday with d15 and d18. D7 is already down there, she left last Friday with H, my 2 stepkids, and MIL. ( at least he didn't take skank-ho with him!) Ow told MIL that she was jealous that they were going to Florida without her, but she couldn't justify going b/c her boys were off from school for the week!! WTF?? This is coming from a woman who left her kids with her xh and btw are teenagers now so why would she feel the need to stay home for them?? I'm not sure I buy her reasoning!
H and I made arrangements for me to pick d7 up on my way down. We are going to see my parents for a week. I am looking forward to getting away for awhile with the girls. I also am feeling sad as this is the first vacation H, I and the kids have taken separately since our break up. Going to Florida was something that we did every year as a family, now this has all changed so it's hard. I miss d7 so much since she left b/c she has never been away from me for more than 2 days. It makes me angry that I have been put in a situation- it isn't right nor is it fair! My H is such an a** for chosing this way of life for our child.
H is still living with Ow, stinks like he is now a smoker-Yuk!, still treats me like I am his enemy -- cold and distant. Last week was d7's 1st Penance at our Church. H did come with MIL ( Ow didn't come) , we sat together with d7. The Priest talked about forgiveness and sins, how ironic- while H sat there acting all smug and innocent. I was upbeat, pleasant and made small talk with him and MIL. When it came time to give signs of peace to one another, H turned to me and gave me a quick and very businesslike hand shake, with minimal eye contact! He's such a jerk. When we walked d to do her confession, H and I stood outside the room alone for a few minutes. I didn't know how to act or what to say , so I said " Boy, she sure is growing up, isn't she?" H said "Yeah, she is- I remember when this church was first built , she was just a baby." I just listened to him and that was about it. It was ackward and uncomfortable. Afterwards there were refreshments out in the gathering area. I mingled and talked with the other parents, whilst H and MIL stood off to the side. H doesn't really know any of the other parents b/c he isn't really involved with d's school like I am. I saw him glancing at me out of the corner of my eye. He didn't stay long, came over and said goodbye to d7, but not to me. I gave MIL a kiss goodbye and told her to have a safe trip to Florida. I then said goodbye to H. If I wouldn't have said goodbye he would of said nothing to me. I don't know why he hates me so much.
The next morning H called the house to talk to d7. I answered the phone b/c I needed to ask him a question regarding the Florida trip he was taking d on. H was very short with me , answered my question and then said can I talk to d! I hurts when he has to be so mean. After d's Penance I would have thought he may be a bit nicer to me, but I guess I was wrong.
Other than that, I am doing pretty good. The girls are well and looking forward to Spring. I have been working out at the gym and keeping busy.
