had a drag of a talk with H today. D18 was promised, as all our kids were/are, a trip to "anywhere" for high school graduation. Went to Italy with s20 last summer (and took the girls as well). So, d18 wants to "save orphans" etc and go to Ghana and do volunteer work. Hard to see it as a selfish thing. And with some charity group it shouldn't cost that much. H disagrees about the affordability of it, blah blah blah b/c of the move, his salary not being a partner yet, ALL things HE caused and all things that were totally predicatable...anyhow, we discussed the work I did for the company and what they're paying me. H says something about how "It looks like we're going to be partners up here and making choices....""""" blah blah blah. The phone disconnected but I wondered, "so, NOW we'll be partners b/c....I'm earning money?" WTH? I know, don't overreact. But every time I think he's learned something, I hear a stupid greedy sounding comment that irks me...oh well.
Anyhow, I'm putting the deposit down for the dang Africa trip. Shoot, I want to go too. But that leaves d9 somewhere and H will be working of course. I will have to hold him to his word about taking time off and doing some damn travelling. What is he waiting for? I wonder, must HE break every promise made to d18? I really feel that she has gotten the short end of the straw quite enough with him missing the past 2 years...but see, when I do this type of thinking, I spiral backward into the anger...not so helpful. I'm going to cheer myself up now, with food of course...I mean, what are my options? Oh last night went in the hot tub and watched "Arrested Development" (HILARIOUS but fast, so a southerner might not keep up...) on DVD player and said, "Ah, this is the life...." Some little things do help. With food.
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M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
