Wow... I dunno what to say honey` He really is being a genuine pr*ck. Sorry to be so derogatory but jeez does he think you are made of steel? I wish I knew how to dig up my old threads... I used to feel so lost and would post everyday just to keep my sanity. I used to snoop too and it caused me agony. I used to feel like giving up too.. all of what you are feeling I too have gone thru. You are not alone we are here for you!
I guess what I really want to say to you is this~ do you think if you fight for this on your heart of hearts that he is going to fight with you too? I was not sure if my H was going to love me ever like I deserved... but I had to let go for me .
Not literally mind you but just really let go. I dunno when I cut the rope but when it got to be too much I detached and detached some more and just let go of any expectations from him. And that is when my sanity started to return. Let me know what you think.. I will be online for a while cause my h is out for the nite with friends so post and let me know how you are doing.
And what nice thing have you done for you, just you this week? Love, Ali
