A week before he "freaked out" and stopped talking to me, he called while I was waiting for a friend so we could go out to dinner. (My XH didn't like this friend never has and was the cause of a great deal of stress in our marriage at the end.) I told him who I was going out to dinner with and he said fine, go out to dinner and F*ck him and have fun. I said I will go out to dinner and when I am done I will call you. He said he might answer.
I called later and went over to my XH apartment. He made some comment about me going to dinner with this man. I asked him, "Why do you care? You didn't invite me out for dinner, he is my friend he is moving in 30 days to be with his girlfriend." He said, "I don't care, just giving you crap." I just said, "Sure".
I know he would be jealous if I was seeing someone. But I just can't do it. I have tried, but I am not "over" my XH. I still love him too much and still believe we can make our realtionship work. Until I totally give up all hope I won't see anyone else.
I know he loves me, he told me he did/does and probably always will. He also said he can't be around me b/c it has an emotional cost to him. (which to me says I got under his skin and it scared him...so like any good MLC he ran.)
I guess I can only pray that he is missing me. Thanks lissett for your comment and thought! R2
