It was great seeing my 2 girls last night before they went to bed. Because of their late night they a still asleep upstairs.
My wife is currently at work and she works again tomorrow night. She does what she can to avoid me and the sitch that we are in.
Since I have pulled back: no just because phone calls or emails, not talking about our relationship, not talking about the afair, and trying to work on my own happiness witout her, I have noticed she is a little more relaxed around me. The tone of our conversations is pleasant. She can actually look at me. Unfortunately our talk is very shallow.
I hate this...I hate this....I hate this....I want my wife back..
I have a WAW involved in an EA that is on a path of self discovery in which I do not fit. I feel so freakin helpless. When all is said and done I want to be able to look my girls in the eye and say that daddy did his best. As you can tell I am a little down rightnow. Maybe I should take one of my wifes happy pills ;-)
The crazy thing about all this is that everything that my wife has ever said that she has wanted is sitting under this roof. To be honest I meet the OM and talked to his wife about a month ago ..... he is the exact opposite of what she has ever looked for in a guy. But for some reason that SOB was able to connect with my wife in a way that I couldn't. Now I just need to get a chance to connect with her again in that way and all the other ways we have connected through the years.
