Had a really good few days feeling very detached, positive, forward thinking, etc. etc. Then I saw W on Wednesday evening and I went several steps backwards...
W had come to see D and I tried to miss her by coming home late. She was still there, however. I'd had some nice text messages from her earlier in the week asking how I was, saying 'take care' etc. In one she even apologised for the upset she'd caused D which she's not done before. The good thing about these messages was that they really hadn't affected me one way or another.
Anyway, on Wednesday I happened to mention that I was trying to book a holiday for me and D over Easter and told her where I was thinking of going. She became anxious and said 'I'm going there on Sunday'. She didn't say who she was going with but her anxiety would suggest very strongly that it's with OM.
This really cut me up because in our 20 years together we did a lot of travelling and this was a really big part of our lives together. And now she's going away with him. It sucks. I struggled yesterday but feel a bit calmer about it today but it still hurts really badly.
As for how she seemed on Wednasday, my Mum hit the nail on the head when she said she seems lifeless and emotionless, even with D. For me it seems like she's on auto pilot, going through the motions. When she gets lively with D it feels forced and false. One thing that really attracted me to my W was how genuine she was. Genuine is the last thing she seems at the moment.
Is this consistent with what other people have seen from their S 7 months in to replay?
