Wow you are all so great coming to my aid when I truly need it. Thank you all so much.
SDfoundgirl
That is so funny fantasising about her hair falling out :D. I cannot afford any MC unfortunately otherwise I really would get some as I think I need it. I think like you say this is all natural what I'm feeling I'm maybe just expecting too much of myself too soon - after all it has only been 4 months.
This OW problem seems determined to rear its ugly head constantly at the minute....we talked and kind of put it to rest again last night (meaning I decided I was achieving only more pain and to try again to deal with it in my head alone). We are working together in the garden today and my phone bleeps - I have a text. So I stop to read it and am dumbfounded - completely and utterly. It is from her! First off how has she got my mobile no.? She basically said that she was texting to say sorry if she appeared rude by leaving as soon as I arrived and that she was going to come round in person to apologise but didn't get chance and she hoped I was OK. I read it out to H who looked equally dumbfounded and asked if he'd given her my number or asked her to text me to apologise. He says he has done neither and I believe him. Needless to say this brought the whole topic to the front again and I tried my very hardest to tell H to leave me alone to ponder it and sort my feelings out but he wouldn't and seemed quite angry she had texted me when we had it sorted. We both managed not to escalate it too much though and the rest of the day was really nice.
However here I am in the early hours typing on here unable to sleep because I just cannot believe she has texted me and can think of all sorts of devious reasons why she has but am trying to put that stop sign up!
