He is leaving to be alone to THINK - now what?

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That actually is something I am thinking about, the ILU part. Even after this, I still am a very innocent person (is this the right term?) I mean, I still believe in that most people are good at their heart, I still see the good in people and do not see the bad so much. This has obviously mean sometimes I am taken advantage of. I also think I am a very honest and straight person so I may not be very tactful sometimes? H, on the other hand, probably believes that a little (or big) white lie won't hurt and necessary to protect people. This has been always our differences. I will say "This chicken taste awful." while h will talk about "the pretty plate" as an example. So it is very difficult at this time for me to really see if h is telling the truth. I am even doubting the ILU. I do not know if he is saying it just to make me feel better "while he decides". This I can see already will be a big issue to work with if we do reconcile. As for being in the right mind, I already threw that out the window :-) I really think at this period, h is "temporary insane". My h is always so logical, yet the stuff he talked about at the heat of the A, was so stupid that I am sure even my son can point out the inconsistency and mistakes in the speech. So yoyowife, it is really true to not let the speech/action at those times to affect you too much. It is difficult because at this current moment, I am thinking exactly all the hurtful things he said.