The positive I see in this is that your husband tells you that he loves you, mine does not. This is the hardest thing in our lives that we have ever faced. I think you are doing a fine job. Only you know what is truly best for you. From my perspective I see that you are truly committed to your marriage. It is so hard when you believe they are not being truthful, I have caught my H in so many lies. Apparently MLC takes away their reasoning abilities. Who in their right mind would choose the OP over their families?
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon