I started to read the divorce remedy yesterday and now have some small goals(at least I hope they are small).
I have been out of town for the last few days and have not initiated an contact with my wife accept to talk to my kids....Sorry I saw Biff (from Letterman) the other day and called to tell her that story. Other then that she has been calling me once to twice a day. Most of the calls were to let my 5 year old talk to me. But when I talked to her I acted "as if" and noticed that she wasn't as cold.
She spent the night at her parents the other day with the kids and mentioned to her mom that she was surprised that I did not call her. Good sign I hope.
She told me yesterday that she is going into work this morning... I hope the OM is not there.... but I cannot worry about that anymore. I also stopped checking her phone calls this week, I didn't realize that my snooping was making matters worse. But it was the snooping that brought the EA in the light and probably prevented it from becoming a PA.
I do not get home until late tonight and tomorrow I go see my C. I am hoping that the time apart this week gave her the space that she was seeking and hopefully I can keep a PMA and keep acting "as if". I'm trying my best not to pressure her at all.
Question: Does the cloud in my wifes head ever lift?
She cannot see the impact this is having on our 2 girls. She thinks that she is strong enough that she will not let a divorce effect them. They are resilient she tells me and life is going to throw things at them and they will need to learn how to deal with it. Why do we need to throw one of lives worst situations at those precious girls...... I'm still hoping and praying...
