I'm so excited for you to be in Las Vegas by yourself. I always tell myself I am going to do that just to get away and think. I think it would help clear your mind. I don't know if you drink or not but I heard that Jimmy Buffets Margarieta Ville has great Margarieta's. It is on the BLvd.
I just can't believe how much our business is alike and what is happening to both of us. The difference is I have a full time job that is different that our business that I do when I can during the day and nights and week-ends with his imput. It is extremely hard to get a grip on things when you are so far behind because there is so much to do with the business and no desire. I used to have the desire and the energy to try and keep things up and going. I don't know if you feel the guilt but I feel the guilt some times of not having things done but not having the desire to get it done because it used to be for us. But Realizing you have to keep it going strong because it benefits us too. I feel the same way you do about him wanting you there to do the work but her to have the fun. It was interesting to read Virginia's take on what is the strong link between hard work and him being with her. I hadn't thought of it that way before. In my mind ( don't know about yours) its like if I work hard he will appreciate me and see and appreciate all the hard work and see how good of partners we really are but I am also thinking how can he be with her she can't do all that I do. I have people tell me all the time you work your butt off and he doesn't see it or appreciate it. I would be interested in hearing Virginias take on this. It is so close to what I've been going thru too. He has a very big family that we have always done business and social things with also he basically has turned this part of the business over for me to run but is quick to tell me if I'm not keeping up. It used to be such a great life style but it is hard to get everything done. It is a mental and physical job and a takes time. AT times like you, Tam ,I wonder if I can do this or do I want to anymore. It is hard becasue my kids come home and help and enjoy it but they are in College and aren't here all the time. Tam, You have come such a long way. YOu should be very proud of the steps you have made. It is so hard to look at all you have put together in a business and to give it up. I am there too. At times I think You should not try to be so responsible and worry and go enjoy yourself. He doesn't worry if it is getting done because I am so dependable he knows it will get done somehow. Reading all these different posts you really get an eye opener what I have let my self become. I'm sorry I rambled on and on.
I wanted to tell you sorry I wasn't here to support you the other night. You have such good support. My H is coming tomorrow after not seeing him for 2 wks to a funeral which will be really hard because there will be people their who don't know whats going on and people that do know her family might even be there. If I can keep my common sense and just be me and don't stress I wil be OK. SORRY I just thought about this as I was writing and kinda Panic for a minute...
You need to go and enjoy yourself and treat yourself to some fun in Vegas. Go explore some fun places and Relax. Maybe a massage.
Well I believe I have rattled on and on. I guess what I was trying to tell you that I understand the business part and how hard it really is. I don't see my H everyday but I talk business with him 3 or 4 times a day. It gets hard not to anwer th calls. Where you have to see him everyday it is very tough but keep your head up and you are definitely improving and becoming yourself. Keep up the good work.
