Life goes on, and it ain't about Job

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Theo;
Man, thank you so much!

It started tonight. My wife came over to pick up D12 who is going to work with her tommorrow. We were sitting around just visiting and going over our week so far. D14 called to see if she could spend the night at friend's house, and while I made her sweat, I said "here, talk to Mom while I think about it", while wife was on the phone, D12 said something about going to Tibet this summer on a mission trip, I just told her no, we had talked about mission work, but Tibet was going to take a little work, and I had already been recruited for a trip to the Pakistan/Afganistan region this next fall. My wife stopped talking and just looked at me like I was from outer space. She asked who I was trying to convert, bin laden himself? I told her if I found the SOB I would probably try to convert him, NO FEAR!

As I have said in previous posts, bomb drop was within weeks of my returning from mission work in Mongolia, wife has said that my being gone had nothing to do with her decision other than showing her she would be OK without me. D12 has expressed interest in doing mission work, and I have been trying to come up with a trip that would be suitable, obviously Pakistan is not that trip. D12 has the same interest in medicine, and although she is a quiet soul, has the heart of an evangelist.

You were elequent in your summary of my options. The worst has indeed happened for both of us. I am saddened by the revelation of your wife's PA, and all I can say is I know your pain first hand. I know how deep and painful that wound is. There are times that I can bearly breath, and moments of such strength and clarity. I too wish it were possible to just give you a hug and reassure you that you are a good man, a decent man, one who is not deserving of the trial you face, but as you said, we are in good company.

For now I have decided to stand. Mostly for me, but also for my wife and my family. Most of all for God. Through this all I have felt more often then not that God has called me to stand in the face of this. I do not know why, and I do not know for how long, but I feel certain that that is what He would have me do. If my wife decides that there is a life here together, wonderful. If she decides to divorce, so be it. Either way, I know who I want to be, the person who gets to hear "well done good and faithful servant."