49 is YOUNG. You've got a whole lot more discovering to do, and just think you grew up, became humbled and learned a lot BEFORE it was too late. I say you've won something there. That's how I feel, at least. And before long, you will regain the pizzazz. That takes a bit of doing. My haggard look is finally gone (and I'm plumping up a bit too which has me a bit worried but not overly so.) You have risen, and you will shine again, Kansha.
