Aww Alex, I just had some time on my hands, to hang out on the BB for a change and spent some time on this subject. Normally, I really do not allow myself to analyze or focus on my H at all. I got over that the first year or so! You caught me!

I have been strongly laying down the law with my H and went to the mat regarding his behavior towards me. I have put him on notice.

It wasn't easy and I had a couple of rough days.

I am still going on with my plan to have an independant source of income and find something satisfying for myself as well. I will then go from there.

My H actually does not "do" remorse. But he does learn overtime when the boundaries are drawn for him.

Well, this is a process. You are right, there is NO excuse for his behavior towards me! Thanks for the hard line.

Have you ever checked out this internet networking site? http://www.ryze.com/index.php

I think they have a writers networking group as well.

Thanks for putting up with me. I do know I can go on.

Sometimes I do like to indulge in a little obsessing.

Hugs to you.