I think my H is just trying to get me to divorce him. Why else would he so disregard me and my feelings? Either I’m paranoid or he decided to do the Retrouvaille program just so that he could “say” that “oh yes he tried”. He is narcissistic and emotionally abusive. He speaks out of both sides of his mouth. I cannot even begin to do justice to what comes out of his mouth.
He is still seeing ow. And feels that is his right. He feels that it is his own business, they're just friends and that his relationship with her has nothing to do with any rebuilding between us.(not that he appears to want to do any rebuilding)
He says he doesn’t believe in “marriage” or “relationships”. He just wants to “do his own thing” and “be himself”. He is certain that being celibate at this time is the absolutely right thing for him. He says that he is majorly pissed off that he just can’t have his kids and forget about all this relationship stuff.
Listening to him is making me sick. In our conversations, it seems, that he just turns things around to be about his latest disappointment regarding something I did or did not do.
This man has some serious issues that I don't believe have anything to do with me.
Is it really better for me to just loathe him then to get a divorce? I so hate divorce that I can’t see anything else.
I’m looking for a job. Got kind of side-tracked because of the holidays. The money issue has gotten terrifying. My H says that unconsciously he’s been on strike regarding earning money because of the way he and I relate financially. He says there is too much muck and until it is cleared up he believes he unconsciously sabotages any job possibilities.
I realize now that how I am being is just not working. I most likely will have to divorce my H. I think he is stuck in MLC. I’ve got too many of my own issues to think too much about him.
Well, I do seem to post this kind of post around “that time” of the month. Which is the real deal? I manage to be positive and focused 2/3rds of the time and then 1/3 of the time I feel hopeless.
What is real?
Plan A: ·Get a job ·Move into my own place
Plan B: ·Get a job ·Divorce H ·Move into my own place
Plan C: ·Get a job ·Give it a little more time
Bridget! I love reading your cheery posts. Makes me wonder what astrological sign you are to be so cheery and positive. Thanks for popping over to my thread!
Lily, How’s it going? I try to get over to MLC to read you. Will do so today. Hugs!
LL, I may join the ranks of the wafhm(work away from home mom?) all too soon. I really love being a sahm. I wish it were in the cards. And yes, right now it does appear to be a battle. My H seems to be winning all the skirmishes, right now. Hang in there sweetie, may you have a better result then I have had so far.
