The one common theme you keep coming back to is desire. Can you define that, and I don't mean the simple statement that your wife initiates or says she want to ML with you. That is superficial. If your W could show you desire as you want it, what would that look like through your eyes and would it do for you inside, on an emotional level, for your sense of bonding with your wife, for how you feel about yourself, that sort of thing.
You are hung up on desire and I can't really put my finger on exactly what it is you want. I can't say that I am sure love is part of this. Can you expound?
