Making the leap - Hopefully wount Jinx it!

[limbo]

I don't know if I am expecting to much or what, maybe someone can tell me if they feel the same way.
And maybe I am just repeating myself, but I just feel like h is pretending, that he is waiting for something else better to come along, but then I think he couldn't be that evil to do that to me, the kids, our family, who are all now working under the assumption that we are working on it and it will be fine.
He seems fine, and tells me he loves me daily, we cuddle often and go out weekly.
However he doesn't "talk" to me, doesn't tell me how he is feeling, what he wants, you know that kind of thing, now he has never really been one for talking, however with everything that's gone on he must realize the importance of this.
Should I be satisfied with what I have right now and just stop worrying?
Am I being mean to him by not trusting, always expecting the worse to happen, and I guess the worst from him?
We are going away in the summer and this is all that he is focused on, and a tiny part of me worries, that once we are back he will leave then, as he really wants the holiday and I know he doesn't want to be the one responsible for the kids dissappointment, but again could he be that evil, and to me thats what it would be, to string me along, tell me he loves me and he wants the marriage to work.
Am I now just looking for things that just aren't there?